Ive had alot of ups and downs the last months...HEaven and hell so to speak. And ive read everything iabout tilting/downswings and overall mentallity i can get my hands on.
From 250 to over 600 and then back down twice as fast as i won it. Time and time again.

Still, the downswings really breaks me and puts me on tilt. THe kind of tilt where i know i should stop playing, ive read it time and time again, but as the overall feeling of hopelessness gets over me i think "f**k this shit, i dont care...The kind of tilt that makes me play outside my bankroll.
And i wake up the next day cursing myself for loosing that extra 50 bucks.

This has played out for me several times. And even though im completely aware of whats going on, i keep on doing it.

Im beginning to feel that i just dont have what it takes to absorb a downswing, or the maturity to shrug of a tilt.
I love playing poker but it has begun affecting my real life. I get angry and upset and takes it out on ppl around me.

Should i just stop playing? Or what do i do?