thanks for all that advice!
i shall digest it all in time. For now i realise that i need to buy about 25-50 buy ins before i can start a bank roll.
i still stick to my point that the chip leader always turns over the best cards and i refer to Gus Hansen. Tell me he doesn't have strange poker luck.
But i also get that if you play consistently well you should win more than you lose. The bad beats will come but your good playing should even out at the end of each month.
cheers!