cheers guys!

Who's Slevin? and what was his story?

Yeah, last night was funny. I was rusty and I used to do this all the time when I first started, but I accidentally bet .80c instead of .08c preflop. I was like: shit, don't call, don't call. He called, goes all in on the flop and I had to call with pocket 6s. So, after being down 5 buy ins, my first hand sent me down another buy in.

So I had to deal with that, I didn't go nearly as mad as used to. I recomposed. Then reloaded, for less this time, I play 2nl and you CAN buy in for $5 and because I was doing well I had started buying in for $3. So I reloaded for $2 and only played one table. Focusing on the other players intently.

So I slowly doubled up which absorbed my previous mistake. Again, trying to just breath through my wins, not get attached to them. I DID look at poker tracker and I knew I shouldn't but I just did it consciously, being aware of why I was doing it, why I shouldn't do it.

I ended up with nearly $9 on that table, so $5 profit total. Again, I felt at ease rather than punching the air.

For those interested in learning about the idea of attachment and doing negative things but doing them consciously rather than forcing yourself not to do them, look up a guy called Ram Dass (ex harvard professor who was fired for conducting experiments with LSD alongside Timothy Leary in the 60s).

And I have read The Power of Now too. Good read yes.